Wow – how odd it feels to return to writing. Many of you have sent me messages basically asking if I’m alive. a) thank you .. it’s incredibly moving to know people notice your absence. b) yes, and I’m slowly creeping back into my social media/blogging on the daily. So – why the extended silence?
Most of you have read my original post on depression and mental illness. If not, you can catch up here. My depression likes to come and go and sometimes rebound with the intensity of Black Friday shoppers trying to score a big screen on a dramatic discount. I’m not sure if the intensity has anything to do with age – from what I’ve encountered in healthcare and what I’ve read, mental illnesses seem to enhance themselves like fine wine. Winter also does a number on my mood. The overcast days, cold weather, and natural inclination to stay cuddled on the couch only feed the hermit in me and in turn worsens my depression. It’s a terrible circle right? I thrive on warmth and sunshine and I HATE winter fashion. I’ve never liked feeling bulky in any sort of way, hence the eating disorder but I feel like it’s so much easier to express yourself in a unique way in spring/summer wardrobes. I get SUPER annoyed browsing through instagram and seeing nothing but sweater/jeans/gucci belt combos. YUCK!
When I find myself in these super scary lows, I try to escape the unnecessary things (like social media) and focus on centering myself again. So how do I do that? Hot tea, fires in the fireplace, mani/pedi’s with an occasional massage or facial, and lots of reading! I set a goal to read 100 new books (my crop top below says book club!) this year and it’s so mentally refreshing! I love a variety of literature – from chic reads to historical fiction, mysteries, autobiographies, etc. OH and we can’t forget hot baths with a nice smelling bath bomb – so much yes!
What to Do if the Lows get TOO Low
Guys – I cannot stress enough the importance of getting help. Even though I do see a professional therapist and physician – I still have moments that knock me off my feet. In those moments, you need to have a plan – like ghostbusters.. you know, who ya gonna call? Find your tribe, or your person – the Christina Yang to your Meredith Grey (where my Grey’s fans at?!) Know who you can turn to, even it’s 3am but you can’t escape the scaries. And have a plan B – not the pill – but a backup plan, because life. I’ve been there, done that, and fortunately have had someone come check on me when I took a scalpel to my wrists.
Write These Down – No really.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Call 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Text Line: Text 741741 from anywhere in the USA to text with a trained Crisis Counselor!
To Write Love on her Arms: This cause is one of my favorites AND it has a list of local resources for anyone needing help!
Depression and Bipolar Social Alliance: DBSA offers peer support, outreach resources, and a variety of wellness tools to make sure you’re on the right path!
AND IF ALL ELSE FAILS – CALL 911!
The 911 operator will get you the help you need but sending help straight to you. Never ever feel like you’re alone or there is no escape. I can say from experience those feelings seem permanent, but as cheesy as it sounds there is always a new day! Be your own favorite!
Photos by Rebecca @ BeckleyCo